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Summer Sweet

One of my favorite childhood memories centers around July 4th celebrations. Though we always enjoyed watching our neighbors sending up their own fiery sparks, the memory has little to do with fireworks. It seems the best family memories are often… Continue Reading →

True Love

My week began in melancholy nostalgia. Monday was my mother’s birthday. She’s been gone for 10 years. I miss her most when I want to share something funny or something beautiful with her. She was my best friend during my… Continue Reading →

Aftermath

The day after– or the hours after– a panic attack can be almost as bad as the attack itself. During the attack, adrenaline rushes through me just as if I were still in actual, physical danger. My body doesn’t know… Continue Reading →

Anatomy of a Flashback

Scared Body trembling Tremors, shivers Cold, not cold Alone in my head With memories Filling my body Can’t breathe Wild eyed Chest tightening Dissociating Dizzy, falling feeling Confusion, chaos Dissolving, distrusting Destabilized, disorder Drowning, smothering Fighting, clawing, crying Lost, dying… Continue Reading →

Grace in Beauty

Beauty. I’ve spent my life in pursuit of beauty. Gazing at it, studying it, working to create it in one form or another. I bring costuming visions to life and help people realize their own beauty. Fashion was my first… Continue Reading →

Backyard Superheroes

Wonder Woman, Wolverine, Batman, Storm, Rogue, Spiderman, Superman, Kitty Pryde, Bionic Woman and Bionic Man– heroes a child could find in popular culture, not just in comic books, in the late 70’s and early 80’s. As children, we wore all… Continue Reading →

Golden Memories

From springtime through the summer and on into the deepening golden days of fall, she was out in her gardens. Demeter, spreading sunshine and flowers wherever she walked. Even in winter, sunlight and warmth radiated from her presence. Children and… Continue Reading →

This is Me

Last night in the mirror I saw her again. The other, stronger, edgier me. The one who is comfortable in her skin. The one who loves herself unconditionally. She is the one who loves ME unconditionally. She loved me enough… Continue Reading →

Reconnect

Cold and moonless night Silent souls circling bereft Lost and lonely disconnect See the spiraling sparks Familiar kindred flames The gathered kin knowing your name Brightly burning fires Hearts join the dance Wild and free and inspired Long forgotten meanings… Continue Reading →

And She Danced

“…(she) dances in heaven now…. Aldeane loved to sing and dance, although she had a husband and son with two left feet.”–Bill Stanley (from her obituary) There has never been a time in my life without music. My mother loved… Continue Reading →

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